About a month ago, I stopped blogging. I stopped posting on Facebook, I stopped Tweeting, I stopped engaging with you, the Mud Run Maniac community. I just stopped. I shut down. I hit my wall.
I pour into it like a freight train, but then…I sputter. I think. I swing and miss. I smash into the freakin’ thing like an inflatable wrecking ball.
We’ve all been there, at the wall. At Tough Mudder, I’ve stared that sucker down until I KNOW 100% I can jump and reach the top. That’s when I GO with all my might! I pour into it like a freight train, but then, a millimeter before I’m about to make my leap to Berlin Wall dominance, I sputter. I think. I swing and miss. I smash into the freakin’ thing like an inflatable wrecking ball.
Yes, it’s happened to me. It’s happened to you. It’s happened to all of us. When it happens, we don’t know why and there’s one of three main choices we can make. Option 1: Quit. Option 2: Go around. Option 3: Find a way over.
Since you’re here reading this post, I’m making the casual assumption that Option 1 is off the table. You didn’t sign-up for a mud run to run home for a box of tissues. You’re here for the long haul, for the exhilaration of not just starting something epic, but finishing it. You’re here because you don’t quit.
When I first started this blog about a year ago now, I definitely hit a few walls along the way. But early on, I always found a way to climb those suckers and get things done and continue to build the Mud Run Maniac community. But in a year, things can change dramatically…
A little about me.
In the past year, my wife gave birth to our first daughter Cecily. It’s so true how the world changes when you have a child. Nothing matters anymore except big picture things like love, nourishment, care and patience. And it all happens so naturally. It’s truly beautiful.
If there’s a reverse positive to this story, it’s that other things in your life take a rain-check or at least a backseat. I’m passionate about mud running and I absolutely enjoy engaging with the Mud Run Maniac community. But when given the choice to toss my daughter in the air, watch her crawl, read her a story, take her with me to Home Depot – OR – blog…it’s a no-brainer.
In February, I started a new job. I work in Admissions at Hunter College in NYC. If you’ve caught any of my MapMyRun posts on Facebook or Twitter, you’ll notice their usually from Central Park…it’s just a few blocks away. I work primarily in marketing and communications, finding ways to employ new media as a means to have a positive effect on enrollment. Blah, blah, blah…it’s actually a great job, and I’m really excited about it. Two issues: 1) it’s far from home (over 1:30 one-way)…2) it takes a lot of time and energy.
So, by now you’re probably saying, “Welcome to the real world Paul. Would you like some cheese with that whine?” And you’re probably right since I’m a big fan of cheese.
But I’m sharing this with you because I know it happens to you too. It’s life and it’s not going away (well, hopefully not anytime soon). So the point is if you want to continue to do the things that exhilarate you, or reduce your stress or are goddamn EPIC, then you just need to do them! I realized, tonight maybe, that I really want to finish this race, but right now I don’t have the time to get over the wall, so I’m going around it. I’ve been staring at this thing waaaaay too long and whether I can fully make it over or not doesn’t matter at this point…I just want to get on with it and get to the next obstacle. Whether it’s at a Tough Mudder or just in life…sometimes, it’s the way it’s gotta be.
So, let’s make it official…I’m back. I finally signed up for Tough Mudder TriState just now (FYI it’s 4:55am 🙂 and Round Two of World’s Toughest Mudder is back on the radar. Thanks for sticking around. And if you’re a new reader or subscriber, just chalk this up to one of the many WTF moments that are bound to come.
Mud run maniacs rock! You’re all my heroes. Now let’s get back to training for epic shit!
-Paul (aka: Mud Run Maniac)